Galya...
Some talk!
Indeed Galya came online just before 1 am, and we parted at 6:00. If I ever felt close to losing her, it was during this conversation. I felt like everything went wrong this past week, and this was the climax...ah I'm talking music again..
Yeah, I said a few words out of place, but they triggered suspicious views on everything I said and did, and I started regretting stuff. But we live and learn. What I learnt is that when feeling low, it's useless telling someone about it if they're not actually listening. First because, you don't feel better, and second, because later, when you do, the subject comes up (because, after all, you did send the messages), and you don't feel better anymore. You feel worse. Worse than what you felt before, because not only you remember the feelings you felt then, but also feel the feelings the person you hurt feels, especially because you couldn't have imagined them getting hurt this much, since what hurt them wasn't intentional, but just a misunderstanding.
Sleep? Sure, I got my sleep alright. In place of Music History and Analysis of Music Forms lessons. Great. Just great. First, I didn't pick up the tapes I gave in yesterday, second, I'll have to ask someone, e.g. Amy to let me have the notes from the Music History, and third, I'll have to phone my teacher and apologise.
Well, I woke up eventually, and found an e-mail from Galya. So I replied. Got a reply, and replied again.
Then I started tuning the piano from scratch, and tuned the whole of the middle, and the bass. And was impressed with myself. It didn't take that long, and I did a very good job. Better than any previous tunings.
Dad came from work and shouted at me for several minutes... Yucks.
I spent a couple of hours reading yesterday's chat with Galya. It seemed not even close to being as bad as I felt it was earlier.
I finished a song called 'Вечность' (Eternity). 6:00.
Tried sleeping. Nice try...
I had some tea, and immersed myself in hot water, and lay in the bath for over an hour.
Need to phone my voice teacher to ask him when's the next lesson (probably today around 14:00).
Indeed Galya came online just before 1 am, and we parted at 6:00. If I ever felt close to losing her, it was during this conversation. I felt like everything went wrong this past week, and this was the climax...ah I'm talking music again..
Yeah, I said a few words out of place, but they triggered suspicious views on everything I said and did, and I started regretting stuff. But we live and learn. What I learnt is that when feeling low, it's useless telling someone about it if they're not actually listening. First because, you don't feel better, and second, because later, when you do, the subject comes up (because, after all, you did send the messages), and you don't feel better anymore. You feel worse. Worse than what you felt before, because not only you remember the feelings you felt then, but also feel the feelings the person you hurt feels, especially because you couldn't have imagined them getting hurt this much, since what hurt them wasn't intentional, but just a misunderstanding.
Sleep? Sure, I got my sleep alright. In place of Music History and Analysis of Music Forms lessons. Great. Just great. First, I didn't pick up the tapes I gave in yesterday, second, I'll have to ask someone, e.g. Amy to let me have the notes from the Music History, and third, I'll have to phone my teacher and apologise.
Well, I woke up eventually, and found an e-mail from Galya. So I replied. Got a reply, and replied again.
Then I started tuning the piano from scratch, and tuned the whole of the middle, and the bass. And was impressed with myself. It didn't take that long, and I did a very good job. Better than any previous tunings.
Dad came from work and shouted at me for several minutes... Yucks.
I spent a couple of hours reading yesterday's chat with Galya. It seemed not even close to being as bad as I felt it was earlier.
I finished a song called 'Вечность' (Eternity). 6:00.
Tried sleeping. Nice try...
I had some tea, and immersed myself in hot water, and lay in the bath for over an hour.
Need to phone my voice teacher to ask him when's the next lesson (probably today around 14:00).
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