Marina's back
Woke up at 8 am.
Dressed up, wrote down a poem on paper, and went to the rail station. I entered the building right when the train arrived.
Then I saw people coming out of an exit, and went to wait there. After 5 minutes I asked one of the guys there whether it's the train from Harkov. Turned out I wasn't waiting in the right place. By the time I got to the right place, Marina had probably came out already, because I hadn't met her. Waited for about 15 minutes, and went to the Academy alone.
Spent some 5 hours practicing piano, then came out and met Marina there. She didn't look particularly enthusiastic to see me. Just a general 'hello, what's up'. And she had to go to a lesson, Psychology or something... So it was only 3 questions from me about how she was and stuff and that's it.
Hmm.
Then I walked through Old Arbat, through KFC to my teacher's house.
Spent some half an hour chatting to his wife, while he had a lesson with another student. Then had my lesson. It went very well. The teacher was surprised, more than usually. He hadn't expected such progress from me, from anyone, in such short time. Even his wife commented on this after the lesson.
Unfortunately, my teacher has some problems with time, and told me that I might be getting a different teacher for a while. And that my piano teacher (also the Dean of Internation students) will speak to me. I will fight for this teacher till my last.
Anyway, I walked back to the Academy, hoping I might see Marina, or maybe hoping I won't.
There she was, standing at the entrance, with some guy. I was in shock... I stood there for like 5 seconds, before started to move forward. Either she didn't notice me, or decided it wasn't the best time to say hello - she was standing some 5 metres to the right of the entrance, facing away from it and slightly away from where I was.
So I walked through the door.
Saw my composition teacher, said hello, and ran upstairs. There was no room available, so I went downstairs. Looked out of the door... Guess what, Marina wasn't there anymore.
So I decided to catch her up. Wanted to see if the guy's still with her, or what.
So I walked fast in the direction of the metro station she goes home from... Caught up with her, and walked some 20 metres behind for a minute or two. She was with the guy still. He wears glasses too!
Afterwards I entered the metro station (while she stopped at talked to him), and I went down to the platform.
Missed a train on purpose, and then saw her coming down with him. So I went into the platform, and came out again and didn't see her anymore. So I checked the other platform (the one where she goes from), and she wasn't there. Went back to my platform, and she was just going out through a different exit. And then she (with him) went back up the stairs - out of the station.
Either she was saying goodbye to somebody who was walking with them whom I didn't notice. Or she checked where I was, because surely she saw me while I walked past them into the station.
But there she was, going back out, and as she passed me, I realised it wasn't her. The dress was exactly the one Marina wears, and the hair - the same length - and arranged the same as Marina had during the afternoon. But the face was different. And looking at her as she was walking out, I noticed that the hair wasn't 100% straight - slightly curly - not like Marina has.
This was extremely strange. I still wasn't sure it wasn't her. But surely it wasn't - if she passed 5 metres from me and didn't even look at me - surely it wasn't her?
I wanted to go back after them. I really wanted to make sure it wasn't her. I so much hoped it wasn't, for - not noticing me is the worst thing one can do to me. I hesitated. And stayed. Took the train home. Walked home from the station.
Not going to the Academy tomorrow.
I don't want to make Marina feel as though she doesn't have a minute of her own, because that's what she'll feel if I spend a lot of time with her on the very first days since she came back.
So, I'm not going to do a thing for a while. Or for a long while. Or...
Yucks.
Practiced piano at home for an hour, then violin for an hour, then went to sleep at 22:20.
Dressed up, wrote down a poem on paper, and went to the rail station. I entered the building right when the train arrived.
Then I saw people coming out of an exit, and went to wait there. After 5 minutes I asked one of the guys there whether it's the train from Harkov. Turned out I wasn't waiting in the right place. By the time I got to the right place, Marina had probably came out already, because I hadn't met her. Waited for about 15 minutes, and went to the Academy alone.
Spent some 5 hours practicing piano, then came out and met Marina there. She didn't look particularly enthusiastic to see me. Just a general 'hello, what's up'. And she had to go to a lesson, Psychology or something... So it was only 3 questions from me about how she was and stuff and that's it.
Hmm.
Then I walked through Old Arbat, through KFC to my teacher's house.
Spent some half an hour chatting to his wife, while he had a lesson with another student. Then had my lesson. It went very well. The teacher was surprised, more than usually. He hadn't expected such progress from me, from anyone, in such short time. Even his wife commented on this after the lesson.
Unfortunately, my teacher has some problems with time, and told me that I might be getting a different teacher for a while. And that my piano teacher (also the Dean of Internation students) will speak to me. I will fight for this teacher till my last.
Anyway, I walked back to the Academy, hoping I might see Marina, or maybe hoping I won't.
There she was, standing at the entrance, with some guy. I was in shock... I stood there for like 5 seconds, before started to move forward. Either she didn't notice me, or decided it wasn't the best time to say hello - she was standing some 5 metres to the right of the entrance, facing away from it and slightly away from where I was.
So I walked through the door.
Saw my composition teacher, said hello, and ran upstairs. There was no room available, so I went downstairs. Looked out of the door... Guess what, Marina wasn't there anymore.
So I decided to catch her up. Wanted to see if the guy's still with her, or what.
So I walked fast in the direction of the metro station she goes home from... Caught up with her, and walked some 20 metres behind for a minute or two. She was with the guy still. He wears glasses too!
Afterwards I entered the metro station (while she stopped at talked to him), and I went down to the platform.
Missed a train on purpose, and then saw her coming down with him. So I went into the platform, and came out again and didn't see her anymore. So I checked the other platform (the one where she goes from), and she wasn't there. Went back to my platform, and she was just going out through a different exit. And then she (with him) went back up the stairs - out of the station.
Either she was saying goodbye to somebody who was walking with them whom I didn't notice. Or she checked where I was, because surely she saw me while I walked past them into the station.
But there she was, going back out, and as she passed me, I realised it wasn't her. The dress was exactly the one Marina wears, and the hair - the same length - and arranged the same as Marina had during the afternoon. But the face was different. And looking at her as she was walking out, I noticed that the hair wasn't 100% straight - slightly curly - not like Marina has.
This was extremely strange. I still wasn't sure it wasn't her. But surely it wasn't - if she passed 5 metres from me and didn't even look at me - surely it wasn't her?
I wanted to go back after them. I really wanted to make sure it wasn't her. I so much hoped it wasn't, for - not noticing me is the worst thing one can do to me. I hesitated. And stayed. Took the train home. Walked home from the station.
Not going to the Academy tomorrow.
I don't want to make Marina feel as though she doesn't have a minute of her own, because that's what she'll feel if I spend a lot of time with her on the very first days since she came back.
So, I'm not going to do a thing for a while. Or for a long while. Or...
Yucks.
Practiced piano at home for an hour, then violin for an hour, then went to sleep at 22:20.
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